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Well. I haven’t blogged in three weeks – right before I started my new job. And as week after week goes by and I fall further behind in writing my weekly Bellingham Bay Marathon training posts, the thought becomes more and more overwhelming.

When I started this blog in November, 2007, my life was very different. This blog was very different. I was very different. And even up until a few months ago, I had blog goals and plans and found a new theme and installed a new theme and felt really fucking proud of myself for doing all that. And I still am. But my goals are not the same.

Right now, I care about running and marathon training. I care about spending as much time as possible with my husband and my puppy. I care about taking my puppy to his therapy dog assignments. I care about binge watching Revenge (or, in the past, 90210, Party Down, Childrens Hospital, The Increasingly Poor Decisions of Todd Margaret, Arrested Development, Scandal, Breaking Bad, Sex and the City and a number of other shows that have glued me and Andy to the couch for absurd amounts of time). I care about cuddling my sweet, funny puppy and even though you couldn’t tell by looking at it, I do kinda care about finishing organizing the new apartment we moved into. In June.

When I get home from work after an hour (on a good day) drive, I am exhausted. All I want is to collapse on the couch – and that’s just on days I don’t have evening appointments or commitments. I wake up at 4:45 to run (and this is after asking Coach Abby to change my weekday runs so none are longer than an hour), and on days I don’t run, I want to sleep. My weekends are for relaxing, family, laziness and whatever else we do. I don’t want to spend my precious free time blogging unless it is TRULY what I want to do. And usually, it isn’t.

And it’s hard to really, fully enjoy doing these things I care about when I have THE BLOG hanging over me. Feeling like I “have” to blog this week or getting stressed that I will fall behind. And the pictures. The pictures take SO LONG to upload and format and blah blah blah. Meh.

Image of Larry Gary the Ratcha pup

Larry and his ears

I’m not quitting this blog. But I am changing how it fits into my life. I will absolutely write race recaps (I LOVE being able to go back and read those because I’d never remember most of my racing experiences if I didn’t write it all) and anything else that I want to blog, only when I really want to blog it. I have two big races coming up:

I am SO EXCITED about these races and I want to document these experiences. At Bellingham, a weekend with my family, racing in a new state, attempting to break that 4:00 barrier and my first marathon as a Oiselle team runner. In NYC, getting redemption on a race I never finished, getting the real NYCM experience, wearing my Aunt Dale’s name on my American Cancer Society Team DetermiNation singlet, running for a cause greater than me or my goals.

Dori and Ashley running race

JackRabbit Battle of Brooklyn 10 Miler with Ashley Runningbun

And I will. But I won’t let myself ever feel stressed about this blog again. Growing an audience isn’t my goal. Writing regularly isn’t my goal. Taking an hour to get a few pictures in is a waste of my time. Worrying about the right tags, SEO metadata, categories – exhausting.

Not worth it for me. This blog is for me. It exists so I can have an account of my experiences, so I don’t forget them. I am all about nostalgia (if you follow me on Twitter you’re probably sick of all my Timehop tweets by now).

Having a blog feeds right into that – I can bring myself back to any race and remember what it was like to be there. That’s not stopping – at least, not for the big races. I love my race recap page because it lays out just how far I’ve come – in both running and blogging. And if reading my blog resonates with you, or helps you, or makes you happy or angry or whatever – good. This blog is for me and it is also a way for me to connect with you, with others who care about the same things.

Anyway, I’m just here to say that I am so glad I was able to recap my weekly marathon training for 11 weeks, but it doesn’t look like I’ll be continuing with the last 8 weeks. The last time I ran a marathon but didn’t blog about every detail, I was publicly accused of not training. I assure you that wasn’t the case then and it most certainly isn’t the case now, when I am working harder than I ever have because I chose an aggressive goal. I feel like I am naturally slower than many people who try to run a marathon in under 4:00, so I’m giving training everything I have – but I don’t need to write about it to prove it happened.

And if you enjoy following my training, or want proof, or whatever, I log it all on dailymile – so you can check me out there at any time.

This blog has brought countless opportunities (and wonderful friends) to my life and I am so grateful and happy for that. But I’m OK without those opportunities. I am at the point where I like the brands I like and don’t want to try and review new things. I like working out at Refine. I like wearing Oiselle. I like drinking Ultima. I like Injinji socks and Hoka shoes and no, I do not want to try your sneakers/socks/workout class.

Image of hoka sneakers in blue

Breaking in the marathon Hokas!

And that is OK. I don’t want new opportunities, I just want to share the big races, the injuries, the whatever-else-I-truly-want-to-blog-about-without-a-schedule. And if I disappear for months at a time, that’s fine too. Enough rambling. I’ve got one month to goal-marathon day. I’ve got work to do!

Thanks for reading for this long and I hope you stick around because I do love this community. And I post often on Twitter and Instagram because that doesn’t take up any time, so you can always keep up with my training and Jersey City things and puppy cuteness and all there. Because I should have been cleaning/organizing this whole time but even this one post took fucking FOREVER.

Dori and Andy - Jersey City Disco

Me and Andy at Van Vorst Disco Night in Jersey City – I learned the hustle!

TL;DR – I will blog when I want to but not all the time, and I won’t get stressed anymore. But I will always blog the big races because nostalgia.

 

 

8 comments on The Blog

  1. Kaella (KaellaOnTheRun)
    September 1, 2014 at 11:48 am (3 years ago)

    Thank you for sharing this and being so open and honest! As I said before, I found your blog when I was searching for a race recap for the NYC Half and read it dozens of times during my training to keep me motivated and excited through some tough times!

    I know you’re going to rock the rest of your training and your next two marathons! I look forward to reading about them here or on instagram/twitter etc.

    I’m glad I found your little corner of the internet :)
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  2. Laura
    September 2, 2014 at 7:38 am (3 years ago)

    Your blog post =my thoughts exactly. Only I was too lazy to actually blog those thoughts. I haven’t been able to blog in months. I feel slightly guilty but it’s just not a priority right now. But maybe at some point it will be again–and it will still be there if/when I want to go back. Good luck with the training! Can’t wait to hear about your races!
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  3. Lauren @ Beautiful Plant-Based Life
    September 2, 2014 at 8:14 am (3 years ago)

    Thanks for sharing this with us and letting us know where you’re at! As a long-time reader, I have been missing your regular posts. When the NYC Marathon was cancelled in 2012, YOU were the reason I ended up at The Richmond Marathon the following weekend. I will always be grateful for that experience. Best of luck at your upcoming races. Keep those recaps coming!
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  4. Corinna
    September 2, 2014 at 4:38 pm (3 years ago)

    Hope your job is going fabulously and sending you positive thoughts for another successful marathon. Blogging is such a fun hobby and somehow career for many, but I don’t think it’s supposed to feel like a chore. Taking a break, focusing on other parts of your life, and blogging sporadically can be the catalyst for a happier outlook as a whole. I hope it’s working out and you feel more refreshed, or at least, unburdened by the blog.
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  5. Courtney @ Eat Pray Run DC
    September 2, 2014 at 8:00 pm (3 years ago)

    word. your richmond marathon recap was one of the reasons i signed up for the race last year. i hear you on needing to focus on other things. happy you joined the oiselle team and hope i’ll get to meet you at a team meetup in the future (perhaps nyc marathon… :))
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  6. Kara
    September 12, 2014 at 7:30 pm (3 years ago)

    This is a great post! Although I’m very sad I can’t follow along with every detail now. You always motivate me with all your training updates. But I’m glad you’re doing what’s right for you. Just make sure you send me personal updates, please :)
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  8. Heather
    September 26, 2014 at 4:26 pm (3 years ago)

    I found your blog searching something about the BBM marathon. I’m running it too but my goal is not as lofty this time. Maybe a 4:20. Good luck hitting 4!

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